One little someone was having trouble controlling herself today, so I had her take a seat on the stairs near where I was hanging curtains. She's been a little "off" for a while now. I can't explain it, but I can feel it. I've asked her what it is. I try to explain what I'm seeing in her, and we try to think of why it might be like that. She usually doesn't know. I usually have a small idea, but I'm trying to crack through. Today, we had an amazing break through into one of our girls horrific pasts before she came to our family. I stand amazed at how God orchestrates things. I too have a similar tragedy in my own life, while I don't think it's quite as disturbing as hers. I posted on a closed group of families that have also adopted from Eastern Europe asking them their advice on what to do next for our daughter. Only one comment came through - therapy! And it hit me like a ton of bricks....God has already prepared the way for her healing in a very natural setting. I'll explain what I mean...
As a requirement of fostering here in our state, I needed to get counseling for my experience with this great tragedy. I received Christian counseling, and while I was being counseled, the therapist helped me help someone else, which was 1 of 2 young ladies that I've played a small role in mentoring during their struggles from this same sin that was cast upon them. And, now my own daughter has had this robbery happen to her. I'm amazed at how God has not only redeemed that experience from my youth, but 3 times over. In doing so, God has used this terrible experience for good, and by helping others, it has instilled in me both the desire and knowledge of how to help. I am in awe of God and His work. And, when the time comes, I can share my own experience with her. While we may not have bonded for the first years of her life, and have just now had the opportunity since July of last year, we will certainly have a bond like no other when the time is right. We pursued this adoption because we were following God's lead. Still, the thought crosses my mind, "I wonder if she'd be happier or maybe even better off in Ukraine." The answer is a definite NO! God knew just the place she needed to be, and I'm encouraged to know that the stripping I endured and the healing that was so difficult to come by, had a purpose for the Kingdom of God - Redemption of His little child.
I'm amazed at You, My God, My Redeemer, My Lord! Amazed!